A Change is Gonna Come

Sam Cooke said it best:

 "It's been a long 

A long time coming

But I know a change gonna come 

Oh, yes it will

It's been too hard living 

But I'm afraid to die 

'Cause I don't know what's up there 

Beyond the sky"

No truer words have ever been spoken. This song is so powerful to me. Since the passing of my mom, August-December is truly a hard personal season for me. The grief, seasonal depression, self-doubt, and anxiety weights me down tremendously. This year was HARD AF! Knowing there are people who depend on me continuously kept me focused and dedicated to my sacrifices. I truly do everything for them! I know a change is gonna come and I know my dreams will come to fruition.

As a business owner, non profit executive, full-time employee, homeowner, bonus mom, and caretaker of my father I was simply overwhelmed. This season taught me one hard lesson: I will never receive the love I give. I have been looking for reassurance in so many other people and lost myself. Spending my life trying to please others became too much. I learned the value of cutting disrespect short and cutting off people. It's a freeing experience.

As I launch my newest business in a few short weeks, I am really in a good place mentally. I have meditated, journaled, and grounded myself to find my inner happiness and peace. I have reached out and received so much encouragement from others. I also learned the biggest supporters of my business will come from people I don't even know.

-Cb